External vs. Internal

I find myself wondering about the external and the internal life. I often wonder does my external life, everything everyone sees and hears from me, match my internal life. I have realized that my internal life is a very private thing at times, something I can share many times with my friends, but not so much with others.  Does my internal beliefs and values match my outside? I wish I could say a resounding yes to this question. The only way I know to answer this question is to really pull apart what I believe and value. Sounds like fun don't you think? Could be if it wasn't such a scary, vulnerable thing to do. Really examine what I believe, sincerely and honestly look and think about what I value and then evaluate  do these things determine my outward activities.  Do my outward activities, what I do and don't do resemble my inside? This is the question that just keeps running around inside. 

 I have been reading many different books, articles, and magazines lately. Lots of things out there to determine my  life. Lots of issues, some political, some more spiritual than others , to look at. When you read these things, like modern day slavery and child trafficking, illegal immigrants, poverty, what do you do with these things? How do I read this stuff? 

These are the thoughts I have for now, my family is calling, but I want to continue on this train, even if I don't know where I will end up.